After all the “talk” we had the past week I think I have said everything I need to tell you. I have no hate left in me but I did wish that everything didn’t ended the way it did.

Yes, I miss you but now I know I’m almost over you. I have accepted the fact that we can’t afford to be with each other.

I wish there was a digital converter for all the hurt I felt and give it all to you as a digital karma but I don’t think you will ever know how much it pains me to let us go.

I’ll get married soon to someone who loves me more than I love him. I think that will be the best for me.

If you let me choose now between love or money, I’ll choose money, because money can make me happy and love only hurts.

Farewell.

The only way to forget about another man/woman is through another man/woman.

I just got out of a relationship and it still hurts. Some said I should take my time and let the pain of breaking up cease before I go dating. While some said I should go out and find the one who can really make me happy. I has been 7 years since I was held hostage by the past relationship they said, its time for me to move on.

They asked me to take a look at the top dating sites worldwide, maybe something will work out for me there. But seriously, I don’t ever wanna go back to finding love online, it just hurt so much. Also I don’t know how I could ever be nice to people online anymore I don’t think I can ever do the same things again with someone else.

My friends were giving me some online dating guide for reference. I’m not sure how these things work and if my character and experience will get me to follow them. I’m just too hurt right now.

I’m also worried that this will just be a rebound relationship. I don’t think its good to use someone to heal a broken heart but it does take your mind away from the one that hurt you.

Seriously, I wanna grok offline and whoever comes here to see me and become serious with me and can come to get me or be with me as often as he could, then I’ll jump ship.

At least the online thing is cut to minimal and we will see each other as often as we can. Unlike this relationship I ended recently, we only saw each other once. After 7 years. Yeah, stupid of me. But damn, I fell in love online. I have built dreams and hopes with this person online. I guess even in online relationships there’s this 7 year itch thing. I don’t know if we ever get past this together or we will outgrow each other eventually.

I think I should use my head more often and not my heart. We will see.

In a relationship, its the women who controls it. Not the men. Men are happy go lucky, they go with the flow, they get whatever they can and give a little effort in anything. They do what they want and will grab all the opportunity to sleep with other women. Because that is how they were tuned in. Conquer as many women to make them an alpha men status in his pack.

If women don’t control their men, they will go astray and they will fool around as often as they can because you don’t mind it. It gives them room to cheat and disrespect you. I don’t care if they think they are being put on a leash, heck, tell them you are just giving them a titanium bracelets for men because you don’t want them to slip away. Unless you are one of their meantime girls they will make a big deal out of it.

I feel as though I heal slower than I did before, probably because I am.injured physically, mentally and emotionally that my healing process is finding it hard to decide qhich one to hwal first.

I am very much injured. My heart is numb of pain now. My head is angry and I wish it to stop thinking bad thoughts. My feet still stings. But despite all these pain I have to get over it and try to walk one step at a time , slowly but surely, so I won’t be crippled.for the reat of my life.

I thin this is one of God’s amazing plans. He break is apart, he broke my pc, so we don’t have to be prisoners of a relationship that will go nowhere.

Sigh.

Im injured but awake for a long commatose. From now on I will use my head than my heart in loving someobe. So help me God.